Awake at 4:45 a.m. again

Awake at 4:45 a.m. again this morning. It’s needless to say, yet I am, but I am dead to the world this today. Plus, the shower knobby thingy on my bathtub broke today. Good thing I was up so early — I got to jury-rig (sp?) my shower.
Listening: Lisa Loeb – Cake & Pie for the second time. Don’t know yet. Chemical Brothers next….

I have been out of

I have been out of sorts lately when attempting to write. I feel all motivated and everything, but then when I actually sit down to write either here or in my journal — nothing. Just this really blah, yucky feeling, and I just don’t know why. My brain is so full of all these jumbled thoughts that I need to get them out in some fashion, but….nothing comes. I think I may be on the cusp of a bunch of stuff coming together and coalescing into something that actually looks like an intelligent opinion on something, but when — when I say?
I had dinner with Amy and Russ yesterday evening. I worked out and planned on ordering a pizza via my cell-phone, then pick it up on my way home. Well, I waited too long and couldn’t get the pizza and get home before Amy and Russ showed up before the pizza was ready. We watched a video on THE subject once again. I had a few lucid moments in-between snoozing. The conversation afterwards was great — I almost got a moment of inspiration, but I got all jumbled up. One of these days, and I hope soon, it is all going to come spilling out and actually be cogent. Go figure….
I’m writing now more as an attempt to break the log-jam that’s inhabiting my brain then for any particular reason. I need to just discipline myself to write, if that’s what this may be called, about something regularly to keep in practice and to I hope develop inspiration. But, as is always the case, reading stuff like this becomes tedious. Writing it, too….

I’m sure it is a

I’m sure it is a very complicated thing, this Israeli and Palestinian conflict. While I absolutely understand the Israeli’s right to self-defense and the obligation of the government to protect the citizenry, I think the way they are going about it is only causing problems rather then solving the over-all problem. What do you do with the few Palestinians who would rather die and in the process kill as many Jews as possible rather then see Israel as a state exist? No amount of negotiation is going to stop them. No amount of appeasement is going to keep them from killing until the Jewish state no longer exists. What do you do with these people?
Yet, I know that most Palestinians want to live in peace and are not terrorists. Most Palestinians are not out to be suicide bombers. The Israeli military’s current campaign is not going to lead to peaceful co-existence. All it is going to do is further Balkanize the region to the point where no one wins and everyone is involved in atrocities.
Arafat and Sharon need to step aside for the sake of their own people. Bush and the Americans need to be bold in condemn atrocities on both sides — forcibly and in a forthright manner. If Israel doesn’t move forward, threaten to end U.S. aid. If Arafat or another Palestinian Authority leader doesn’t stop the terrorist bombings, then make it clear to them that the U.S. will not interfere in Israel’s right to self-defense. I don’t know. As I said, it is a very complicated situation.
Listening: Natalie Imbruglia’s White Lilies Island & Lisa Loeb’s Cake and Pie — both for the first time. Doing: websites