Loss of Community and Self

Here are the last few paragraphs from this week’s ‘My Turn’ essay from Newsweek, written by Carolyn V. Egan and entitled, “Sidewalks Can Make a Town a Neighborhood.”

“Parents have become slaves to their children’s schedules, terrified to let their offspring out of sight. New houses are huge, enclosing all of life. They’re connected by technological portals to the outside world, making an abstract of everything beyond their walls.
“We worry about the safety of our children if we let them loose to wander sidewalks, even while we hear more and more stories of predators on the highways and byways of the Internet. We have forgotten that we cannot protect our children by telling them to hop in and buckle up. Our children do not develop the instincts to discern and avoid danger from the back seat of an automobile. We deprive them of self-mastery by insulating them from very cold and very hot temperatures, from rain, from wind. They do not know who they are without a plan, without a ride. While we encourage dependence in our children by chauffeuring them everywhere, we also encourage in them habits of selfishness and parochialism.” [Interesting thought!] “Adult maturity is rooted in the unstructured roaming of childhood.
“Sidewalks are becoming nostalgic artifacts of a time before three- or four-car families. To me, their absence represents disturbing changes in the way we connect to one another – and the habits, values, and capacities we bequeath to our children…”

What are we trying to accomplish? What kind of people are we trying to form as we deal with our children? How many of our decisions concerning our children are based solely on fear?
I truly believe we do ourselves and our children no good by trying to remove from their lives all hardships, all inconveniences, all failures, all responsibilities, all things that might impinge upon their self-esteem, all the things that build character, sense of self, understanding of their true potential born of experience rather than psycho-babble, understanding of their limitations… We do them no good by making them, even unintentionally, as neurotic, self-absorbed, and over-burdened by planned-activities, as ourselves.
We do our children no good when we make excuses for our own laziness and apathy when we don’t get up on Sunday mornings for church and say things like, “I don’t take my children to church because I want them to have the freedom to choose their own religion.” I have experienced far too many new college students who arrive on campus with no ability to make good and rational judgments about what is a legitimate form of religious expression and devotion and what is not – they are prime targets of the cults. They’ve been taught nothing and do not know how to judge or discern – they have no foundation.
So, what is the answer to a world that is, in fact, dangerous? Part of the answer is rediscovering the very real experience of community, which also means the rediscovery that the ‘other’ is at least as equally important as the self. We are increasingly loosing our ability to understand the experiential necessity of living in tactile neighborhoods (communities) where the other adults and older children are engaged with one another and are looking after the younger children for their safety and formation. While this is a very loaded phrase, it really does take a village to raise a child, at least as well-adjusted child.

Fr. Jason

Well, I just got word that my former roommate and classmate at General Theological Seminary has begun blogging. Here is his blog:
Barefoot Priest
I have to tell ya, I am a bit surprised (in a good way) that he uses the term “father” rather than the more egalitarian “brother” (he just seems more the “brother” type to me???), and he is wearing a chasuble! A betrayal of your low-church leanings, Jason! 🙂 Unless, of course, I’m just clueless, which is more than possible.

It is what it is…

A heterosexual who is in a relationship with someone of the opposite-gender is a heterosexual
A heterosexual who is in a relationship with someone of the same-gender is a heterosexual who is acting against his/her orientation (nature?), but is still a heterosexual
A heterosexual who is celibate is one who is celibate, but still a heterosexual
A homosexual who is in a relationship with someone of the same-gender is a homosexual
A homosexual who is in a relationship with someone of the opposite-gender is a homosexual acting against his/her orientation (nature?), but is still a homosexual
A homosexual who is celibate is one who is celibate, but still a homosexual

Offensive (or not?)

The politic of “affirmation” and politically correct assertions that to offend is the paramount sin continue to march through the Church.
An article caught my attention from the Christian Science Monitor on the newly released “Gospel of Judas,” the early Gnostic writings determined to be heresy well over a millennia ago. I first saw reference to this article on Kendall Harmon’s weblog, Titusonenine.
The article mentions that many progressive Christians are taking this newly released gospel and using it to buttress their claim that “diversity” has always been a hallmark of Christianity. They are using the fact that there were various communities and theologies during the beginning centuries of Christian development to justify their own variant views of Christian belief and practice.
Now, I am the first to agree that we change and our understanding of God, the Gospel, and the way we live it out in the world change. I don’t believe this means that God changes! Likewise, as an Anglican I support the vigorous debate of different ideas, but there comes a point when one stops believing in much of the traditional and orthodox Christian tenants at which point one stops being a Christian, despite what one wants to call one’s self. To use the early controversies as a justification for the chaos in theology and practice that is present today is not right, since during those early days many of those variants of Christian belief and practice were declared to be heretical, especially the Gnostic forms of all this stuff.
“To think that noncanonical texts legitimizes diversity today ‘is to ignore the fact that that diversity was not accepted [in the early church],’ says Ronald Simkins, director of the Kripke Center for the Study of Religion & Society at Creighton University in Omaha, Neb. “It’s a naive use of history.'” Amen.
Then, there is the whole thing about being offensive!
“At the Episcopal Cathedral of St. Paul in Boston, the congregation has stripped Holy Week observances of traditional content that strikes members as offensive. On Palm Sunday last weekend, for instance, parishioners heard an adapted Passion narrative that removes biblical language seen as blaming Jews for Jesus’ crucifixion. And the hundreds who observe Good Friday won’t pray for those who haven’t yet received ‘the Gospel of Christ’ but for those untouched by ‘the grace of God’…”
The Gospel is patently offensive to this world, whether a conservative or a liberal world. There is no possible way to remove the offense without completely gutting the teachings of Jesus! It does none of us any favors by attempting to strip the Gospel of its offense and of its power, except that there are too many people who do not want to be held to account for who and what they really are – all of us! We have all sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
To attempt to strip the Gospel or the Bible of offensive things will end in having none of it remaining, because offense will be found by some in all of it! So, just stop. Deal with it as it is. Let it challenge us, enrage us, reform us, save us, transform us, convict us, enliven us, instruct us, and lead us into relationship with the God who desires that we be reconciled to Himself, to one another, and to His good creation! To do otherwise is to be so very paternalistic by believing that people can’t handle the Truth, which may cause them some sort of discomfort or amendment of life. How sad. How shortsighted. How immature. How untrusting.

“God or the Girl” & The “Call”

Holy Week is over and I am so tired, worn-out, bushed. It was wonderful, but I’m paying the price right now. Try staring at data on a computer screen all day – everything is in a fog and I keep loosing track of what I am doing.
Last night, I finally was able to watch a couple episodes of “God or the Girl” on A&E. The show follows four young guys as they work through discerning whether they are called by God to be Roman Catholic priests and celibate. I remember my fellow CPE’er, Noel, who was a Roman Catholic seminarian in Chicago and from the Philippines, when he would come up and say to me, “How’s live without a wife?” Joking with him, I told him that only Roman priests had such a problem – Anglican and Orthodox priests don’t. This TV program is well done and so poignant, at least for some of us.
I saw in the four participants the struggles I have experienced over the last six or seven years in my preparation for the priesthood. One guy, Steve, is so vulnerable as he struggles through the “giving-up” of so many personal things as he discerns his call. Here is his bio, “Steve Horvath, 25, shocked his friends and family back in Virginia by leaving his job as a high-paid consultant to become a campus missionary at the University of Nebraska in Lincoln. Now shaking off the comforts of the privileged life he once had (and could still return to at any time), Steve finds himself simultaneously drawn to and terrified of the level of sacrifice he must make in order to truly heed God’s call.” At 24, Steve was making eighty thousand dollars a year, etc.
In this particular episode, Steve relinquishes his hesitation and agrees to go to a mission in Guatemala to work for a short time with the poor – the real poor. His life is changed forever, and by the time he leaves he is in tears. I can see in him the process of giving up of self. It is so hard giving up all that could be in our lives for the incredible and tremendous privilege of serving the people of God, His creation, humanity.
My dean at Kent State wrote a letter of recommendation to General Theological Seminary as I was applying for admittance. He wrote something along the lines of “I believe Bob’s pursuit of the priesthood is a tremendous waste of his talent and ability, but he will do very well…” A bit blunt. I have a great deal of respect for my former boss, Dr. Terry Kuhn. I don’t know exactly what happened, but I do know that after the completion of his Ph.D. and during his first teaching position at a Roman Catholic college run by nuns, he was forever turned off to organized religion, although not to faith. He was truly a mentor of mine (and I use those words very sparingly).
There are so many different things I could have done. I was a very reluctant aspirant to Holy Orders. I started the discernment process really because a group of priests would not let me go, not because it was something I wanted to do. I am thankful, but the process has been so hard.
Lord willing, I will soon come to the end of all the preparation and will be ordained priest. It is then only the beginning. The dying to self and giving of oneself to God and His Church, to people, is the process of making oneself completely vulnerable to… what?… everything. The process of coming to the point where one willingly gives up one’s life for the work of God is arduous, but I can’t think of anything I would have rather done or anywhere I would rather be right now.
I thought a couple times this past week as I watched the people of St. Paul’s: how incredibly fortunate and privileged I am to be able to be with them, to serve them, to watch God work in their lives, and see them transformed into the very people of God. Having to work a full time job, especially as a data-analyst, in order to be able to be with these people is not what I want to do. In yesterday’s episode, as Steve was going to Guatemala he kept saying that he could go back to work, make lots of money, and give it away so that lots of other folks could go and do the hard work of caring for humanity. He was making excuses, hanging onto his previously prosperous life, in the midst of having that part of him ripped out, and facing his fears and anxieties. Steve could go back to his old life, but the place God has for him is probably not in the business world, but in the world of the Church. He has to give up self.
I don’t want to work a full-time job and then put in what is left of my time and energy for St. Paul’s, but this seems to be what God has for me now. The position at the Medical Trust is a good one, and I am thankful for God’s provision, but my most productive hours are spent not being about the cure and care of souls. I have to come to terms with the fact that this may well be, and is probably, what I am called to right now. I have to give up self.

Triduum

I am leaving my “secular” job and now entering into the Triduum of Easter. Tonight, Maundy Thursday services begin the three days of Jesus’ Passion leading to Easter Sunday.
I have been thinking a lot lately of the appeal of High Church liturgy (whether Anglo-Catholic or simply High Church) for many people, particularly younger people, coming out of American-Evangelical/Pentecostal/Charismatic churches. There are an increasing number of young people from these backgrounds migrating to St. Paul’s and our “non-fussy Rite I Anglo-Catholic” church. I really only have to look as far as myself to see this phenomena in action. (Okay, okay, so I’m young in spirit if not so young in fact – age is an attitude of the mind and dependent on perspective – right!?)
I thought the other day, at the Renewal of Vows for the Diocese of Long Island, as Prof. Jim Farwell (my former liturgy professor) was talking about the Triduum liturgies, that it seems that a connection between Pentecostalism (or at least “experiential” forms of Evangelical Christianity) and Anglo-Catholicism is that both are truly experiential. In different ways, of course, by they still share this common aspect.
I don’t know. There is something out there right outside my reach to explain these ambiguous thoughts going through my mind. I’ve been thinking, too, of doing some surveys and asking non-cradle Episcopalians (and particularly the non-High Church) what attracts them to this kind of liturgy/service. A book, perhaps.
So, off to Maundy Thursday and the continuing and deepening discovery of the slow yet persistent work the Seasons of the Church and their liturgies, the Word, and the Sacraments have on the formation of one’s Christian self.

“God and the Founders”

Here are a couple paragraphs from the excerpt appearing in last week’s edition of Newsweek from Jon Meacham’s new book “American Gospel.” Jon Meacham is the managing editor of Newsweek, an Episcopalian, and I’ve heard him speak on a number of television and radio programs. He is good, despite my disagreement with a few of his theological perspectives.
He is commenting on the current issues of faith in public life, the culture wars, and the animosity that seems to inflict much of our current and common life.
“Understanding the past may help us move forward. When the subject is faith in the public square, secularists reflexively point to the Jeffersonian ‘wall of separation between church and state’ as though the conversation should end there; many conservative Christians defend their forays into the political arena by citing the Founders, as through Washington, Adams, Jefferson, and Franklin were cheerful Christian soldiers. Yet to claim that religion has only recently become a political force in the United States is uniformed and unhistorical; in practice, the ‘wall’ of separation is not a very tall one. Equally wrongheaded is the tendency of conservative believers to portray the Founding Fathers as apostles in knee britches.
“The great good news about America – the American Gospel, if you will – is that religion shapes the life of the nation without strangling it. Driven by a sense of providence and an acute appreciation of the fallibility of humankind, the Founders made a nation in which faith should not be singled out for special help or particular harm. The balance between the promise of the Declaration of Independence, with its evocation of divine origins and destiny, and the practicalities of the Constitution, with its checks on extremis, remains the most brilliant American successes.”

(Newsweek, April 10, 2006, Vol. CXLVII, No. 15, p.54)

The donut

This is a good story sent to my seminary class’ Internet group – by Renee Feener, a classmate and now priest at the Cathedral in St. Louis (a great woman!). What I like about the story most of all is the creativity of the professor – whatever it takes to get this stuff across to the next generation. The story itself is somewhat hokie, but good nevertheless.
—– The story…
There was a certain professor of religion named Dr. Christianson, a studious man who taught at a small college in the western United States. Dr. Christianson taught a required course in Christianity at this particular institution. Every student was required to take this course regardless of his or her major.
Although Dr. Christianson tried hard to communicate the essence of the Gospel in his class, he found that most of his students looked upon the course as nothing more than required drudgery. Despite his best efforts, most students refused to take Christianity seriously. This year Dr. Christianson had a special student named Steve. Steve was only a freshman, but was studying with the intent of going on to Seminary. Steve was popular, well liked and an imposing physical specimen. He was the starting center on the school football team and the best student in the class.
One day, Dr. Christianson asked Steve to stay after class so he could talk with him. “How many push-ups can you do?” Steve said, “I do about 200 every night.”
“200? That’s pretty good, Steve,” Dr. Christianson said. “Do you think you could do 300?”

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