I’m very tired. I’m not

I’m very tired. I’m not sure why. Ashton and I roamed around the east village for quite a while last night. Maybe the extended walking tired me out. It is funny how before my illness I could walked 80-90 blocks (from the Cathedral of St. John the Divine back down to the seminary) and be fine, but now, after my illness, walking very far truly tires me out. I’m going to die when I start running again. Anyway, maybe that is why I am so tired today. I hope so.
Baccalaureate is in a few hours – Archbishop Desmond Tutu. I’m going to miss the seniors a lot – Chris, Leighton, J.R., especially. Dion will be heading back to Ohio. I should have been with him in this year’s senior class – we went through the process together. I think it odd to imagine being finished with school and headed for a ministry job if I had completed this whole process as I should have. Now, I find myself in a position where I may have to do things differently once again. I have always traveled my own road, not intentionally, though. It just seems like I end up doing things differently than everyone else. It may be that way again if I don’t start CPE in a couple weeks. I will experiencing everything differently, once again. As Roy says, I have no idea what the future will hold!
Back to the seniors – though I have not been able to spend as much time with them as I would have liked, being sick for 6 weeks does that, (I never did make it up to David and Richard’s for the Sunday night Six Feet Under get-together) the seminary will not seem the same. That undercurrent of Anglo-Catholicism that runs throughout the seminary (“current and future deans take note”), will now be left up to others, possibly myself included. Claire will be at St. Mary’s the Virgin. I don’t remember who will be at St. Ignatius. John will be at St. Thomas. I don’t know who will be at St. John’s in the Village. Maybe I will end up at St. Paul’s, Carroll St. in Brooklyn. Different than Ascension. I’m not at all discouraged by not being accepted for field placement at Ascension. It will be a great place for Tim, and for some reason I am drawn to St. Paul’s. Lord, your will be done – for CPE and for field placement!
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I do not want to

I do not want to study today! I have to. Too many exams coming up. Next week, my make-up mid-term for NT and final for OT. Today is Baccalaureate and Desmond Tutu is speaking. Roy gave me one of his tickets to the chapel, so I can see him speak in person rather than on a video screen in the overflow room. I saw his speak at Oberlin for commencement one year Amy Burrows was still working there. I think it was before Apartheid fell. I just don’t want to study!
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